The Beatdown & The Will To Live I am going to speak a little bit about 'the will' in this article. Most people have gone through a few rough patches or some form of adversity in their life experience and know the toll that it can take. There are those that have only known this state of existence for years or lifetimes without end. Some have burst through it to a higher state of being or at the very least survived it to continue onward. Others have been broken, given up or may have crumbled under the pressure, perhaps becoming hardened in certain ways. They still fight but can see no way out or have been dragged down into the depths of a seeming eternal damnation. I have personally been among the downtrodden and was homeless myself for a time. When it comes to being severely beaten down the visual is pretty clear, you will be able see it in those that it has a firm grip upon. This can drastically effect your ability to manifest and at the center of it is 'the will' and in particular the will to live. The beatdown can come in many forms. It can be horrible life circumstances, financial hardship, emotional trauma, some sort of existential or spiritual crisis, energetic issues for those who are sensitive, health issues, work related stress, chronic pain, nightmare neighbours or all of the above at the same time on multiple levels. Some were born into it, some have endured it for many lifetimes while others just had a really rough week. Humans and the will to live can be very resilient and resourceful though. Whatever form it takes, look at each point of concern and take the steps to control or minimize what you can on your end. For those of you that are sensitive this can be an awful period of extended suffering as you tangibly sense so much. You may be feeling the relationship breakups of 100 lifetimes at once through an instance in this life that causes an opening or bleedthrough, especially if they are unhealed. If you are unable to tap into love, the feeling of it or even your health if you are not on a favourable side of it this lifetime then things have the potential to be quite difficult. The beatdown can break people at certain points, or parts of them may decide to 'check out', leaving you with an absence of energy and information needed to carry out your incarnation more effectively. See the 3 part article 'Tribe of One' for a much more in-depth explanation. In short, if you are missing parts of yourself or your field, especially if it is a significant percentage then you are bound to an internal beatdown which will be manifested in your outer reality. There are layers and levels to this people. How much do you actually perceive about what is really going on and what type of state are you in to be able to deal with it? If you do not know or understand your inner landscape then you will truly not understand what is happening to you. You may not need to know everything that is going on within to transcend your circumstances and temporary limitations but such knowledge can be very helpful. Ignornance can be a partial form of bliss in certain scenarios but it is no substitute for true wisdom of the real thing. Some of you are fresh and have recently woken up, while others came with a 2012 wave of awakening and there were of course many in years prior to that. Add to the fact that each had their own personal awakening at different or early points, some even being suppressed, on purpose. These times may be forging periods for you or something much more. A loss of the will to live can come about when some part of you has reached a breaking point or a sustained continual beatdown with no apparent way out and heavy limitations placed upon you. Constant suffering and no matter what you do the outcome is still the same or worsens. Cumulative damage is a very real thing. You can also look at it in percentages when it comes to parts of you. There may be many parts of you that have given up, become fractured or separated but that does not mean that all of you is on board with it. Rally the troops and the ones that do want to live. Just remember that those who are beatdown and do not wish to engage are also affecting your ability to manifest. Which side is stronger or has the most emotional charge? It could even be that 1% which is left who is able to make the call. If you do not have a strong foundation then everything will crumble... continually. You may not have even had the opportunity to cultivate one in this lifetime and some of us have had it destroyed, usurped, eroded or stripped away in other times, perhaps even through simple or intricate manipulation. You require a solid base to in order to deal what life has in store for you. If you have certain things in place then you will always be able to bounce back quickly. Things like your health, proper knowledge, ability to manifest and a strong energetic field. You can reach great heights without it but seemingly never go all the way as you need yourself (your foundation and all aspects of it) to ascend to the next level and stay there until you once again make choices to do otherwise. The inevitable fall is waiting if all is not cleared, learned and actualized at each rung in your evolution. You may simply be ill equipped to deal with things without taking a heavy toll. The saying, "you are only as strong as the weakest link in your chain" is basically true. There are times when life does not hit you in the weak area and your strong links take over but more often then not the weak link is the one that is targeted. What if you have several weak links? Not fun. When it rains, it pours... another saying. Probably by one who has had a number of continuous beatdowns. I will add a point though. There are times when hardship or a beatdown may be required on a higher level to alter someone's character or to gain empathy but there are also those that have the feeling ability in abundance and are still going through it. Sometimes we consciously put ourselves through these trials and tribulations. Like training under duress which can be used to forge and hone our abilities, if we already have certain things in place. There is no need to retraumatize ourself as that may be counter productive if not done right. Cumulative suffering over time can have a detrimental effect on your entire well being and pysche. When one's creativity is stifled or the ability to express oneself safely is not an option, or has become silenced, things can seem very bleak. Without the capacity to express your real energy unhindered by programming or through a healthy vessel, it can be very frustrating. How well do you believe you can manifest when your will to live has been crushed? The saying, "Their heart just isn't in it" has meaning. If one doesn't want to be here then some part of yourself will find and create a way out or make things unbearable (possibly by exploitation and manipulation through others as well), whether you are consciously aware of it or not. If there is wounding around love then it is very understandable when one does not feel welcome or wanted somewhere then parts of them will not want to be there. Period. Suicide. A few words on this as it is relevant to this topic. I am not here to tell you how to think or feel but to simply offer up some options and possibly different avenues or ways of looking at the situation. The way I have understood things about this thoughtform or subject is that if you take your own life when there are ways out of your circumstance then you will literally have to incarnate again and be put in the same or similar situation in order to overcome it. Some say you end up getting completely reset to start your incarnation cycle all over again losing all knowledge and starting from the beginning. There are realities and experiences where you can seemingly come and go at will but that doesn't seem to be that case here at this time. Some of your brothers and sisters may choose to bow out along the way, whether their reasons seem valid or not, it is up to them. Suicide and self harm are not 'normal' reactions to life's issues, even when the walls are closing in. There are many other things going on and deep layers of programming or previous trauma which are beyond the scope of this article so just do your best to be aware on all levels. What I can offer up is this, when it comes down to those moments there is you (or whatever parts of you and your will are present) and you alone, most likely without the real support or understanding necessary to assist in your endeavours. Choices will have to be made. Own it, own all of it. The way you feel, what you are thinking, what you must do. Even though you are alone you are surrounded by other people and beings whether your lives are touched by each other or not. Sometimes you tap more into that incredible will, sometimes an unforeseen hand gets extended towards you, sometimes you find way, sometimes you don't but the will or effort must be there through the choice on some level. What choice 'will' you make? For those with this pattern, do not give up, at least in the department of your will. Know when to act and when it is time to go, to the best of your ability. The will to live is an extremely powerful force. The will to overcome all odds, to create a way out of any situation. Sometimes you get caught, it does happen, especially here where our faculties have been severely impeded which prevents us from doing and seeing specific things. There is such a thing as needless suffering, especially if the 'lessons' have previously been learned and all of the patterning is easily recognized. When there are already avenues towards your health, natural advanced technologies that could assist everyone including the planet, things that have been available yet suppressed for decades, what does that say? When there are those who are trying to dominate and control humanity to further their own agendas by doing things like using specific frequencies to block you on purpose, then the suffering is legitimately no longer required except for individual growth and 'karma' or to bring about change on a grand level through the masses working together to stop the cycle of madness. When you know for a fact that free energy is a reality, that all of our sickness can be cured, that those who are in power are living a lie and continuing to perpetuate it... it makes things very difficult internally when confronting the seemingly insurmountable odds. On the flipside though, this should give you some strength and motivation that despite some trying to have this knowledge buried, it is already part of the consciousness of humanity and only needs to be accessed by more people who are breaking through their programming. Do what you can to educate those who cross your path, especially those who are more awake, open minded and aware. As one becomes more awakened, evolved and aware the path becomes very narrow, especially at this time. The things you can do, the people you engage, the food you eat, the area that you live in. Some of us are utterly alone and surrounded by wretchedness daily, which includes your sacred space, your home. Your environment can truly impact your well being. There is a truth to having strength in numbers, back-up and support if you will. However, if you are the only one then you can be buried and silenced rather easily. I am not saying do nothing, on the contrary, use different angles of attack and defense. This is the will not breaking, but instead learning or continuing to adapt and overcome. Many of you have or had unfullfilled dreams. Choices were made, life circumstances happened and some things will come and go. You can roll with it or you may have 'moved on'. Yet, beneath that you might tap into your true life purpose, your unique way of expressing your being and your soul agreements or contracts. You may get distracted along the way, might get manipulated, perhaps it was karma, perhaps it was something else but when this expression gets thwarted, we have a problem. Perseverance. Like any objective, persistence is a key contibruting factor in getting you there. Awareness of the situation and the power to act upon it with support, both inner and outer, is truly amazing. Forge and cultivate the will to live, a source of your inner strength. You are a god, you are a creator! With the 'will' on your side you are an absolute force of intention and expression through action.

Dec. 30, 2019